Jun 28, 2009

Late night thoughts.

look into my eyes and tell me the truth
grab me by the hand and tickle my finger
hold me by my neck and massage me gently
call me on the phone and tell me your into me
whisper in my ear and love me without fear
show me how to treat you when i cant get it right
tell me I'm wrong when you don't want me to do it again
show me you still care when you turn your back on me
don't promise me you ll be here forever, love me forever
wipe my tears and unravel my fears
be the medicine to my sickness
and make me feel great
trust me with your mind, love me with your heart
hug me with warmth, and run with me in the dark.


You know I like that [TLC] Tender Love and Care
people ask I say yea she my [PYT] Pretty Young Thing
that's why she ride with me
as long she with me shorty ride for free
forever in my heart that's where shell always be
she open up my eyes and found the beauty in me
now things are clear....TO BE CONTINUED. I STILL NEED TO EDIT IT. IM TIRED

TIME!

Time is one thing I know that cannot change. Once we are put on this earth our time is ticking away. Its something I believe definitely not to stress but to take note of. When your sleeping someone is up. While your relaxing someone is working. While your eating someone is planning something. Time is so precious but so dangerous. Time can change things forever. It is not something to take so lightly. Do what you have to do when you get the opportunity. Don't sit back and think it will come to you. Sitting on the couch, sleeping all day, watching TV all day long, doing nothing with your life is depressing. If you have a dream you go for it. You try hard. You fight hard. Time is ticking and we need to take every second we can get and do something positive. Being the fact that Time is one thing we cannot change. It keeps going. Your sleeping, your awake, doing homework, making love, fighting, playing, time is ticking.

Work hard. If you want something you have to practice, rehearse, get training, Read as much as you can, Educate yourself, Do research, Find different ways to get yourself noticed in a positive way. And most importantly surround yourself with people who actually want to do something with there lives. You feel much better and you will believe in yourself.

Jun 23, 2009

MOST PAIN

In my heart I believe the most painful feeling is...
the fact of [NOT KNOWING]
Not knowing what it would be like.
Not knowing how it would have turned out or where you would be.
How things would have changed.
Staying up late trying to fill your head with different answers just because in your heart you do not want to be left with nothing at all.
Truth of the matter is, there isn't an answer to every question. And that is what kills the most.

Not knowing hurts so much for me. Not being able to have the question answered in your head to always go back to. But i cant let it hold me back. I always have to do better, always giving my all no matter what.

Sometimes in life you just dont know. At times it can be just what you needed because maybe you really didnt want to know. But other times you feel as if you deserve the right to know. Or you just want to know because it possibly can change your life. In my life im forced to deal with the fact that my MOM is my MOTHER and FATHER. And nothing will ever change that!

Relationships

Now a days people aren't happy. Always arguing, always fighting, breaking up and getting back together. People getting used and not knowing how your partner really feels about you. Stop sticking around if you do not care anymore. Stop wasting your time. it sucks sometimes when you meet someone and they are so into you. They call you, text you, email you, I'm you, and even take you out. Finally he pops the question and your going out. time seems to fly and its 8 months into the relationship. He starts to change and doesn't care as much anymore. He doesn't give you the kisses you loved, forgot your anniversary and forgot your birthday. You stick around because you love him. You cant live without him, when you really can. stop thinking a person completes your life. Your living even when your lonely. You don't need someone all the time. learn to respect yourself and everyone else will soon begin to respect you.
If he forgets to call you every Friday, its a sign.
If he's always trying to get some and never wants to take you out, its a sign.
If he dumps you and then comes running back like nothing happen at all, its a sign.
If he hangs up on you period, its a sign.
simple things like this matters. I'm not saying that if someone does these things they are a complete bad person. I'm just mentioning it because sometimes people forget the special gift they have in front of them. Some people need reminders and others just need to be left.
there are good guys out there and good girls.
Be careful of the blessing in disguise!

Jun 21, 2009

This is so true.

You go out and you see the most BEAUTIFUL girl standing by herself. she stands straight up, long hair, nice legs, black spandex, nice purse. She takes a look at you. For a second your heart starts to pump faster than usual. you feel like saying something but then you realize shes looking at the guy behind you. he walks right past you trying to make his towards her. He finally reaches her grabs her hand, kisses her gently, and they smile at one another. you take a step back and say "that dude is ugly" because he probably is to the average person. and you think "But she is so BEAUTIFUL." And that's exactly my point...

The so called "ugly" dudes because they are not afraid to ask the beautiful girl out on a date. They are the ones that are not afraid to be themselves and not act like someone they're not. they walk around being who they are all the time. Believe it or not females like that. They love to see the guys not trying to impress them like the "pretty boys". The pretty boys are always afraid to approach a good looking female because they're not use to it. They're use to females walking up to them and not doing any of the talking.

Don't be afraid to be who you are. that's what makes you special. And if someone doesn't appreciate you for who you are, then forget them. Do not waste your time tyring to lower yourself to satisfy someone else.

Thoughts running through my mind.

I'm feeling inspired
why wait when you can do it now? why hold it off giving yourself more time to call it off? why second guess yourself, when you already want to do it? why give up when you know that's not what you would like to do?

Its all because we loose hope in ourselves. we think less of ourselves. we go out and do things with the mindset that were not good enough. its the sense of being afraid. Being afraid of what will happen next. whats in stored for us tomorrow. when really what we do and we do it is what makes tomorrow. were so caught up in letting life come to us. we need to take charge and envision what we would like to happen. I'm of guessing what will happen.
NOW GIVING UP - Giving up is letting everything go. some people give up for many different reasons. i like to ride it out to the end. until i reach that point where i cant give my all anymore. That's just the way i am. when i start something i really believe in doing i go all out. look for different ways to approach the situation and make it the best i can.

Jun 16, 2009

WE ALL GOT DREAMS.

Stop looking for what you imagine and look at whats there. Look at whats been in front of your face all along. Your so use to looking past it and trying to find something that's not even in sight. Once you get past that point, you will realize you have opened your heart to something you may have never imagined. You opened your heart to something amazing. You opened your heart to yourself.

Something is always there. We can never say we are lonely in life. We always are with someone. The only time you can actually say your lonely is when your in your bed looking at the ceiling talking to yourself. But you always have someone to speak with when times are rough. It just feels good to say you want it. Makes us feel the hunger for what we crave.