MOST PAIN

In my heart I believe the most painful feeling is...
the fact of [NOT KNOWING]
Not knowing what it would be like.
Not knowing how it would have turned out or where you would be.
How things would have changed.
Staying up late trying to fill your head with different answers just because in your heart you do not want to be left with nothing at all.
Truth of the matter is, there isn't an answer to every question. And that is what kills the most.

Not knowing hurts so much for me. Not being able to have the question answered in your head to always go back to. But i cant let it hold me back. I always have to do better, always giving my all no matter what.

Sometimes in life you just dont know. At times it can be just what you needed because maybe you really didnt want to know. But other times you feel as if you deserve the right to know. Or you just want to know because it possibly can change your life. In my life im forced to deal with the fact that my MOM is my MOTHER and FATHER. And nothing will ever change that!