LETTER TO SELF

There Is always that one thing that stands out- its the mistakes people make- sometimes its easy to forgive and forget. it haunts you in the back of your head waiting to be sure whats going on. it finally catches up and you realize its life that is just passing by. sometimes I loose my mind trying not to loose her. I wish I knew what I could do. its like I'm right there but I'm not. how do you make things right if people make the same mistakes. its hard when they keep doing the same thing over and over. is it because they want something else. they want something new. there tired of it all. they want to experiment. who knows? But when it happens to you you ask yourself what to do. and yourself says I don't know what to do.

you keep trying and going as far as you can. it feels so different when that something is missing. there are plenty of beautiful females and males just waiting to enjoy that 1 special person to share there everything with. the problem is that people loose there mind. but when they make that one mistake they keep doing it. then they get use to it. it becomes what you do then they become the habits that you cant stop because your so good at doing it. or either you get caught and they accept you as that.

people out there get hurt and deal with it. the way they recover is by loving them. loving them with 100% no matter what. people just don't know when to stop. but they don't stop because they feel so strong towards that other person. but sooner or later that person starts to disappear day by day because you see all the hurt it caused you. but that's the problem PEOPLE LOOK AT THE HURT THE PERSON CAUSED THEM AND FORGET ABOUT THE SPECIAL THINGS THEY DO FOR THEM like when they give you a kiss goodnight, when they hold your hand, when they tell you they love you just so you can know that they are always thinking of you. when they buy you a rose just because they love you. when they miss you and send you those cute little messages to there friends to reach you wherever you are.

but the key is if you love him or her. show her tell her and if you love her even more day by day let her know tell her/him. let them know how serious you are. let them know what your thinking don't be afraid. speak your mind tell them what bothers you. tell them what you like what you adore what you love what you cant live without. but know that you need one person in your life. once you got someone else just forget about everything. that's when you let yourself go. you did wrong. the love you had for that person has vanished. it disappeared to please that other person you been with. you cant share a heart, you cant share your love, that's when life will never be the same. starting over is hard, wishing that things never got like this.

LOVE IS NOT BLIND....ITS SEEN THROUGH THE EYES OF YOUR LOVED ONES....

JONATHAN GARCIA- DON'T LET ANOTHER GIRL OR GUY REPLACE YOU-


“I’m sorry,” is a statement. “I won’t do it again,” is a promise. “How do I make it up to you,” is a responsibility.

MALES WANTS AND NEEDS

Why cant you look into my eyes and know that I'm the one. Why cant you touch me and feel the burning fire I desire. Why cant you feel the pain I feel of not being able to be with you? Why cant you wipe my tears and kiss me until I smile? Why cant you tell me I love you and mean it? Why cant you appreciate the attention I give you every chance I get?

When I'm with you I feel as if your a stranger I never met before. You look at me as if you don't even recognize me. The closer I get to you the further you distant yourself from me. You have me stuck in a world where I just want to be happy with you but I know its something that won't happen. I'm stuck because I know you don't want to be with me. I keep trying because maybe one day I can turn that strange face into a laugh that will tickle my heart. A smile that will shake my soul. Gentle music from the sound of your voice is what I long for. I wanna get to know you more. I want you to see the real me. I want you to be the one to know exactly what I'm feeling. I'm tempted to say but i just cant anymore. I've all that I could. But now its time for e to move on to what's been waiting for me.

ACCEPTING LOVE.

As you go through stages in your life you interact with many people on a daily bases. you have your very close friends and friends that are just there. No matter what they mean to you in life it is always good to receive the love they give you. When you think so negative and brush off everyone around you, you begin to feel alone. ACCEPT the "Hello's" and the "How are yous". there will come a time where you will miss it. Nothings worst than not having someone there for you to call.

lying alone in this room hoping someone will be there. Hoping that someone could see the good in there hearts to take the chance and put a smile on your face. Feeling lonely is a dark place. Don't love go to waste. Walk around with smile on your face. It takes time to find the good in people and except that someone wants to help you with just a simple "hey".

LOVE

People get afraid

You meet someone. You start getting to know one another, exchange thoughts such as likes and dislikes, smiles and late night text. Laying on your bed asking yourself "do i care about this person? does he even like me? what if she doesn't like?". You keep hanging out the days begin to pass smoothly as the sunsets and rises once again. Everything is great. One day you both are walking down the street having an interesting conversation about anything, Doesn't really matter at all. Just both of you enjoying each others company is already beautiful as it is.

The night ends in a nice warm hug - the body language is sensational, your heart beats are racing, your mind is trying to catch up with your actions as you gently KISS. From that moment on, the time you spend together is unforgettable. As you go home you cant wait to lay down to wake up to call one another. You begin to tell each other that your gaining feelings and getting more comfortable with this person. You have created a relationship that makes you feel good.

Conversations start to get a little more serious, more intense, more in depth. Then one day everything takes a turn. She starts to back away. Tries to separate herself from you. Comes up with silly excuses about why shes acting so strange. You sit there confused and hurt. Hurt because You also have a heart. You have feelings that are real. As your sitting down thinking back on every conversation you had, every text, every visit, every phone call, you cant think of any specific moment you hurt her. Or even made her feel like she couldn't tell you what she was feeling. Keep trying to think why all of the sudden she wants to stop talking to you. Why she just wants to run away and forget about you...

BE YOURSELF

Sometimes PEOPLE don't wanna be themselves because they're afraid people
won't except THEM for who they really ARE. So they live the life of a
DISGUISE hiding there true self under something the world seems to be
conditioned to, because that's all they OFFERED to society. When there's
so much more, when you [GIVE YOURSELF].

when your acting like something your not and people begin to get use to it, you think they're accepting you? NO THEY'RE NOT. Be yourself and show the world who you really are. Nothing is more disgusting then someone who doesn't like who they are. Maybe you need to change your habits. Who you hang out with. Where you work. The way you do your hair. All of this hard but you need to do so. The longer you go trying to disguise yourself, the more your breaking your own heart because deep down your not happy. And being happy is everything!

UPSET!

OREO'S IS NOT MILKS FAVORITE COOKIE.
CHIPS AHOY IS!!!!!!!!

FREAKIN COMMERCIALS PISSING ME OFF.

MANY THINGS HAPPEN

Strange things.
No matter what, there will always be competition. While your sleeping
there up. While your resting there working. While your watching there
doing. You have to keep your eyes open and work hard. Have goals. Keep
yourself busy. Get training In the field you want to pursue. Be
persistent. So when the time comes. You are ready. Being successful is
not being famous. Its doing what you love and have a consistent paycheck
that supports your lifestyle. Think realistically. And ask yourself, am i
seeing what is In front of me, or am i seeing what i want to see? There
is a major difference if you allow yourself to analyze it.
I WANT TO CHANGE PEOPLES LIVES.

They say "SHOOT FOR THE STARS" if you are going to shoot for the stars then you better be willing to climb up there and go get one. Shooting for the star is easy, but to actually get one is difficult. Think about what your doing and think it through. Know what you want in life and create a plan on how you will achieve it.

Don't hold back. Say what needs to be said. If your thinking something and you feel the need to say it then do so. I cant stand holding things inside. I like to express myself as much as i can. And i am proud of that. I'm here on earth and every step i take i make sure that i leave foot print anywhere. i love my life because I express myself. I do what i want and i have fun. I Love my family because i actually spend time with them and we exchange smiles each and everyday. We fight, argue, cry, laugh, go out, and do whatever it is we love to do, and that's what makes us a wonderful family. Although my Mom, dad, uncles, sisters, etc. aren't my only family. My family goes deeper than that. My family is my friends, my pets, my school and possible even my associates. Because with my "FAMILY" is what brings my heart happiness in anything i do. And i will never forget that.

Afraid

I'm not afraid to with you. I'm not afraid to get hurt by you. Cause I'm not worried about it. Doesn't cross my mind to think my heart will be crushed. Because being with you brings me happiness and happiness with you brings a change in me. Change that will bring us closer together. I'm not going to spend worthless time thinking of different situations and scenarios of how you are able to hurt me. Because if you do, then you do.

-I love to think positively. I think of the greatness in things. Why focus on what you do not want to happen. Why waste your time and energy. Find what makes you happy and follow it. By doing so, you will satisfied. Goals will be accomplished, and change will come from within.

Late night thoughts.

look into my eyes and tell me the truth
grab me by the hand and tickle my finger
hold me by my neck and massage me gently
call me on the phone and tell me your into me
whisper in my ear and love me without fear
show me how to treat you when i cant get it right
tell me I'm wrong when you don't want me to do it again
show me you still care when you turn your back on me
don't promise me you ll be here forever, love me forever
wipe my tears and unravel my fears
be the medicine to my sickness
and make me feel great
trust me with your mind, love me with your heart
hug me with warmth, and run with me in the dark.


You know I like that [TLC] Tender Love and Care
people ask I say yea she my [PYT] Pretty Young Thing
that's why she ride with me
as long she with me shorty ride for free
forever in my heart that's where shell always be
she open up my eyes and found the beauty in me
now things are clear....TO BE CONTINUED. I STILL NEED TO EDIT IT. IM TIRED

TIME!

Time is one thing I know that cannot change. Once we are put on this earth our time is ticking away. Its something I believe definitely not to stress but to take note of. When your sleeping someone is up. While your relaxing someone is working. While your eating someone is planning something. Time is so precious but so dangerous. Time can change things forever. It is not something to take so lightly. Do what you have to do when you get the opportunity. Don't sit back and think it will come to you. Sitting on the couch, sleeping all day, watching TV all day long, doing nothing with your life is depressing. If you have a dream you go for it. You try hard. You fight hard. Time is ticking and we need to take every second we can get and do something positive. Being the fact that Time is one thing we cannot change. It keeps going. Your sleeping, your awake, doing homework, making love, fighting, playing, time is ticking.

Work hard. If you want something you have to practice, rehearse, get training, Read as much as you can, Educate yourself, Do research, Find different ways to get yourself noticed in a positive way. And most importantly surround yourself with people who actually want to do something with there lives. You feel much better and you will believe in yourself.

MOST PAIN

In my heart I believe the most painful feeling is...
the fact of [NOT KNOWING]
Not knowing what it would be like.
Not knowing how it would have turned out or where you would be.
How things would have changed.
Staying up late trying to fill your head with different answers just because in your heart you do not want to be left with nothing at all.
Truth of the matter is, there isn't an answer to every question. And that is what kills the most.

Not knowing hurts so much for me. Not being able to have the question answered in your head to always go back to. But i cant let it hold me back. I always have to do better, always giving my all no matter what.

Sometimes in life you just dont know. At times it can be just what you needed because maybe you really didnt want to know. But other times you feel as if you deserve the right to know. Or you just want to know because it possibly can change your life. In my life im forced to deal with the fact that my MOM is my MOTHER and FATHER. And nothing will ever change that!

Relationships

Now a days people aren't happy. Always arguing, always fighting, breaking up and getting back together. People getting used and not knowing how your partner really feels about you. Stop sticking around if you do not care anymore. Stop wasting your time. it sucks sometimes when you meet someone and they are so into you. They call you, text you, email you, I'm you, and even take you out. Finally he pops the question and your going out. time seems to fly and its 8 months into the relationship. He starts to change and doesn't care as much anymore. He doesn't give you the kisses you loved, forgot your anniversary and forgot your birthday. You stick around because you love him. You cant live without him, when you really can. stop thinking a person completes your life. Your living even when your lonely. You don't need someone all the time. learn to respect yourself and everyone else will soon begin to respect you.
If he forgets to call you every Friday, its a sign.
If he's always trying to get some and never wants to take you out, its a sign.
If he dumps you and then comes running back like nothing happen at all, its a sign.
If he hangs up on you period, its a sign.
simple things like this matters. I'm not saying that if someone does these things they are a complete bad person. I'm just mentioning it because sometimes people forget the special gift they have in front of them. Some people need reminders and others just need to be left.
there are good guys out there and good girls.
Be careful of the blessing in disguise!

This is so true.

You go out and you see the most BEAUTIFUL girl standing by herself. she stands straight up, long hair, nice legs, black spandex, nice purse. She takes a look at you. For a second your heart starts to pump faster than usual. you feel like saying something but then you realize shes looking at the guy behind you. he walks right past you trying to make his towards her. He finally reaches her grabs her hand, kisses her gently, and they smile at one another. you take a step back and say "that dude is ugly" because he probably is to the average person. and you think "But she is so BEAUTIFUL." And that's exactly my point...

The so called "ugly" dudes because they are not afraid to ask the beautiful girl out on a date. They are the ones that are not afraid to be themselves and not act like someone they're not. they walk around being who they are all the time. Believe it or not females like that. They love to see the guys not trying to impress them like the "pretty boys". The pretty boys are always afraid to approach a good looking female because they're not use to it. They're use to females walking up to them and not doing any of the talking.

Don't be afraid to be who you are. that's what makes you special. And if someone doesn't appreciate you for who you are, then forget them. Do not waste your time tyring to lower yourself to satisfy someone else.

Thoughts running through my mind.

I'm feeling inspired
why wait when you can do it now? why hold it off giving yourself more time to call it off? why second guess yourself, when you already want to do it? why give up when you know that's not what you would like to do?

Its all because we loose hope in ourselves. we think less of ourselves. we go out and do things with the mindset that were not good enough. its the sense of being afraid. Being afraid of what will happen next. whats in stored for us tomorrow. when really what we do and we do it is what makes tomorrow. were so caught up in letting life come to us. we need to take charge and envision what we would like to happen. I'm of guessing what will happen.
NOW GIVING UP - Giving up is letting everything go. some people give up for many different reasons. i like to ride it out to the end. until i reach that point where i cant give my all anymore. That's just the way i am. when i start something i really believe in doing i go all out. look for different ways to approach the situation and make it the best i can.

WE ALL GOT DREAMS.

Stop looking for what you imagine and look at whats there. Look at whats been in front of your face all along. Your so use to looking past it and trying to find something that's not even in sight. Once you get past that point, you will realize you have opened your heart to something you may have never imagined. You opened your heart to something amazing. You opened your heart to yourself.

Something is always there. We can never say we are lonely in life. We always are with someone. The only time you can actually say your lonely is when your in your bed looking at the ceiling talking to yourself. But you always have someone to speak with when times are rough. It just feels good to say you want it. Makes us feel the hunger for what we crave.

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FOR THE BOYFRIENDS...

Sometimes all she wants is...

A smile.

A kiss on the forehead.

For you to leave a sweet voicemail so she can listen to your voice when she feels hopeless.

To hold her hand and guide her through rough times.

To move her bangs to the side so you can see her beautiful face.

To show her you need her at times.

To put your fingers on her lipz and say "You don't have to say a word. i got everything under control".

Don't forget to show her your still there physically, mentally, emotionally, and any kind of [lly] there is because she needs to feel that everyday is like your first time.

And finally whisper in her ear "iMa tear that up when we get home" because she also needs to know you still got it. And no one can do it like you can...

CAUSE JONPHOENIX TAUGHT YOU!

LADIES!

She said she tired of feeling lonely even though she got a hubby in her life. He only show her love when she begging for it. Never gives her kisses when he leaves. Never holds her tight just to let her know he's not going anywhere. She's tired of fighting about why the relationship is not working. Tired of the late nights on your bed telling yourself "I love him. I need him. He makes me happy." But NO that's not it. It's the thought of someone actually being there to call your own is what you love. you love the feeling. The feeling of not being lonely. You feel like you need him because you have him. Every man is not the same. Every woman is not the same.
HOWEVER, EVERYONE WILL HURT YOU. Think about what you really want and open your eyes to the opportunities you have surrounding you daily. You keep trying to fix the relationship rather than actually having one. Want to be happy? Open your eyes and open your heart. IM RIGHT HERE!

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